Last night, I tried to tell my best friend something that has been plaguing me for 9 months. When i sat down to show her that I love her, it became a huge joke. Instead of understanding that what I was saying was perhaps one of the most difficult conversations I have ever had and how all I wanted was her to hug me, she just sort of made it into a little stupid lesbian crush. Worst of all, I went along. The thing is, I am really happy now. I love my life, but I dont want to be in this position, the annoying sidekick staring adoringly with puppy-dog eyes. I know that I desperately need to just meet another girl and focus my attention elsewhere, but how I am I supposed to do that at Duke. I do not know one single other lesbian here.